We were just friends, but for me, it felt like so much more. I cared for you deeply, maybe too much, and somewhere along the way, my feelings grew into something more though i have been watching from afar before sharing the little moment we had.

Indirectly, I told you how I truly felt. Loving you has been one of the most beautiful yet challenging experiences of my life. My heart feels so full when I think of you. You’ve brought joy, warmth, and meaning into my world in a way no one else ever has. I love you more than words could ever describe.

When I think of you, one word comes to mind: prodigious. It means amazing, exceptional, and one of a kind. That’s exactly what you are. You’ve taken up a big space in my heart, and that’s not something I say lightly.

But loving you hasn’t always been easy. There have been moments when your words or actions felt harsh, cutting through my heart like a storm. It’s hard to reconcile the person I adore with the one who causes me pain. Every harsh moment feels like a crack in something I’ve cherished so deeply, and it hurts more than I can say.

I don’t want to paint you as someone who’s all bad—because I know you’re not. I see the good in you, the smiles, the kindness, and the potential for so much love. That’s the person I fell in love with. That’s the person I hold on to in my heart, even when it feels heavy with hurt.

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But I’m human too, and I feel the sting of your words. I want you to know how much you mean to me, how much I want us to grow together, and how much I hope for a future where love feels safe, gentle, and mutual.

But now, we’re not even friends anymore. Nothing matters anymore, bond we shared, however small or one-sided, feels broken. This time, your harshness cut deeper than I expected, leaving me with a wound I’m trying to heal. It hurts to think about all the conversations we’ll never have, the moments we’ll never share.

I fight my tears because I promised myself I wouldn’t cry over anyone. But some promises are harder to keep than others that I failed to notice a drop of tear while writing this. My activities wasn’t affected, I made sure to deliver my job with full concentration, that is one thing I love about me, I am a strong woman who endues in the face of tempest.
My heart aches for what we had, even if it wasn’t perfect. I know I’ll adapt. I’ll learn to let go, to move on, and probably get over you. But for now, it feels impossible to imagine a life where you don’t cross my mind.

Even though this hurts, I’m thankful for the time we were friends. You taught me what it means to care deeply, even when it’s not returned. And as I let you go, I remind myself that I deserve love that’s kind, mutual, and full of understanding.

I hope you consider my last wish and I’ll heal, even if it takes time. And when I do, I’ll look back on this and know that I grew stronger, not because I wanted to but because I had to. Smiles, truly love is painful.